NEW YORK (AP) — Fantasia said she was so upset about allegations that she broke up a marriage she was ready to die.

“I felt like if that would have happened, I would have been fine with that — I would have been OK with that,” she said in an interview with The Associated Press on Monday afternoon, nearly two weeks after she attempted suicide.

The former “American Idol” champ took a mixture of aspirin and sleeping pills after she was named in divorce papers as the cause of a couple’s breakup. The 26-year-old said she was so devastated and upset about lies being spread about her that she couldn’t function anymore.

“I had never experienced that — I was very numb,” she said.

As for the accusations that she knowingly dated Antwaun Cook even though he was married with kids, she said he was already separated when they started dating: “I don’t think I would stand for going in and breaking up somebody’s home.”

While she called Cook a good guy and a “great friend,” she said they are no longer together, and haven’t been for a while.

Fantasia shares some of her story on VH1’s “Behind the Music,” airing Tuesday, and a new season of her reality show “Fantasia for Real” debuts in September. She is hopeful the show will tell her side of the story: “The best way for me to clear my name is through my show,” she said.

Her focus now, however, is on her album, “Back to Me,” out on Tuesday. She is in therapy, and said she’s now better able to cope with her problems.

“I must say it was probably a blessing to be in the hospital,” she said, adding: “It ain’t time for me to go yet.”

Copyright 2010 The Associated Press.