“It’s interesting because it’s a little like [I have] two separate lives going on. I have my private life, and what I feel in my home on a day to day basis. And then it feels like, to me that there’s surrounding white noise of other people having opinions or the expectation I think of how to feel about certain things. For example, when we got the Golden Globe for Atlanta, I thought that was exciting but I also felt kind of blasé about it? Like, Okay! Next thing. You know? I don’t feel so much attachment to the identity of celebrity lifestyle. Not to say that it doesn’t come with interesting perks and interesting privileges, and also an interesting way of approaching life. My day-to-day is unusual, and never boring and I have a very routine-less life,” she told GQ.
“It’s a big part of who I am, and a couple of years ago I had an experience with it that changed my life to this day and I had to really kind of rearrange how I thought about my management of that, and what that means for my day-to-day in terms of what I eat, in terms of exercising, having a breathing practice and engaging in meditation practices. For me it also flows a little bit into insecurity with my work, and I think that’s just something that over time, will hopefully—I’m sure it’ll never completely go away, but to where it doesn’t overwhelm me, and kind of take over my emotions,” she explained.
“Depression and anxiety are real, and don’t evade fortunate people. You can still have good fortune and deal with that in terms of what goes on in your life. Everything might circumstantially be good: I’m in a healthy relationship, I have a loving family, I’m doing well in my career. But when I go home at night I still struggle with this, I still have good days and bad days. I have to tell my boyfriend, OK, I’m having anxiety today and we’ll need to work through that together.”
Zazie Beetz also posted about her inner battle on social media.
“Tbt. No filter. Bed head. Or nap head? It feels very personal to show my bedtime hair. But, whatever. I have my period ? right now and should be doing everything else but instagram. I get so fatigued that sometimes I worry I have meningitis. I know others who have told me this about themselves, too. Let me tell you now: you do not have meningitis. Just take an iron pill, drink a bunch of water, take a long nap. You’ll be alright 😉 Have a should-less day. Ellen Burstyn talked about their value: “I have what I call should-less days. Today is a day where there’s nothing I should do. So I only do what I want to do. And if it’s nap in the afternoon or watch TV and east ice cream, I get to do it. I had that kind of day yesterday. Should-less days, I recommend them. Because what I figured out, is we have wiring, I have wiring in my brain that calls me lazy if I’m not doing something. God you’re so lazy…and that wiring is there. I haven’t been able to get rid of it. But what I can do is I can put in another wiring. I can put in should-less days. So when that voice goes off and says, you’re being lazy, I turn to the other wiring in my brain that says, No, this is a should-less day, and I’m doing what I want.”
I try to have every day be should-less. We’re alive after all, how difficult! I mean, of course I work and try to get all of my loose ends in order, but I do always think that I deserve a tiramisu or something of the sort simply because I’m here making the best of what I’ve got! Anyhow, I’m rambling now. Procrastinating away. Let me get back to doing nothing and being at peace with it,” she posted.
