By Britini Danielle
Clutch Magazine

Fantasia Barrino’s had a rough year. She’s “attempted suicide”:http://www.thegrio.com/entertainment/overdose-no-accident-says-fantasia—-i-wanted-out.php; her effort to mend fences with her ex-lover’s estranged wife went awry, now this.

According to reports, Fantasia testified Monday to aborting her unborn child with her lover, Antwaun Cook, around the time she attempted suicide. During the Cooks’ divorce proceedings, Mrs. Cook’s lawyer questioned Barrino about her relationship with Mr. Cook, trying to show that Barrino knew he was married. To prove her assertion, Mrs. Cook’s attorney claimed that Barrino and Cook reserved a hotel room a few days after they met, which according to her, illustrated that Barrino knew he was married. However, Barrino and Cook have continued to claim they were together only after Cook and his wife separated.

On VH1′s Behind the Music, Fantasia said she met Cook when he was separated. “When I met him, he was separated…wasn’t living in his home. He didn’t want to be back with his wife – that is what I was told.”

Echoing her sentiments, Mr. Cook’s attorney attempted to absolve Fantasia of any wrongdoing back in August. “Antwaun would be remiss not to address the criticism and judgment he has received,” Nicole Sodoma, Cook’s lawyer said. “He knew Fantasia Barrino but the failure of his marriage can in no way be blamed on anyone except the two people that were a part of the union — Paula and Antwaun.”

Sodomo continued, ”[Paula and Antwaun] expected their marriage to stand the test of time. Unfortunately, like many marriages, it did not turn out as planned. In late summer 2009, after years of discussion, the parties separated with the intention of no longer being married.”

Mrs. Cook denies they were separated at the time and blames Fantasia for her marriage’s failure. She is considering suing Fantasia under the Alienation of Affection law, which allows a spouse to sue the person believed to be at fault for the demise of a marriage.

During Behind the Music, Fantasia said she attempted suicide because she just wanted an escape from the drama.

“I didn’t have any fight in me. I didn’t care about anything. I just wanted out. At that moment, I wanted out. I wanted it to be over with – all of it, all of that [expletive]. I just sat in the closet and looked at the mirror and took all the pills in the bottle. I wanted to go to sleep and just be at peace. I knew exactly what I was doing. You can’t accidentally take a whole bottle of pills.”

Since her suicide attempt, Fantasia has worked hard to get her life back on track. She’s been on the road promoting her album, “Back To Me and her successful VH1 reality show, Fantasia For Real. No matter what happens next, I hope Fantasia is able to move past this latest dramatic episode and continue getting herself together.

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