Tina Turner bids final farewell to son (Twitter)

In a recent interview with the BBC Tina Turner revealed that she’s shocked and still trying to find answers as to why her son, Craig Turner, 59, would take his own life by shooting himself at his Los Angeles home in July.

Calling his suicide, “My saddest moment,” Turner told the BBC she has “no idea what pulled him down” adding that her son’s life seemed full after finding a new job and a new girlfriend.

“I still don’t know what took him to the edge because at that stage he had said to me that he had never met a woman that he felt that way about,” the eight-time Grammy Winner said. “He was bringing her to me [for] his birthday in August.

“He had decorated his apartment that I bought him years ago,” she continued. “He had gotten a new job with a prominent real estate company in California, [which] he was happy with.”

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The 78-year-old Rock & Roll hall of fame singer was talking about her son and other moments in her celebrated life and 60 years in music in her latest autobiography titled My Love Story, a sequel to her 1986 bestseller, I, Tina. Reflecting on her son, Turner believes he was struggling with “loneliness, ” despite finding love.

“He was an introverted person, he was very shy, so, I didn’t know either, except now when I listen back to our last conversation, I notice a change,” she said. The last few times we talked, the conversations were different, and I didn’t know that until after the suicide.”

During the BBC interview, Turner, who now lives in Switzerland, also discussed her own love life and her marriage to Edwin Bach whom she wed in 2013. She recalled that she suffered a stroke shortly after her honeymoon, a bout with cancer, and needing a new kidney.

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“So I said well, if it’s time…,” she said. “I felt like I’m in my late 70s, my mother died at 84, my sister died at 74 and I thought maybe this was my time.

“In Buddhism, you accept the life and the death,” she continued. “I was ready. I just thought it was my time.”

However, it wasn’t, as her husband gave her one of his kidneys as Turner said she feels much better.