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In a recent interview with a British television program, Mary J. Blige opened up about her very public divorce to estranged husband Kendu Isaacs, describing the split as “horrible.”

“I’m in the thick of it. I’m in the middle of a divorce that’s everywhere (in the news). It’s just how hard life is. It’s the pain, it’s the lawyers, it’s the ‘this,’ it’s the ‘that…’Not even knowing someone that you thought you knew for years is horrible,” said Blige, who filed for divorce in July after 13 years of marriage.

–Mary J. Blige accused by estranged husband of ruining his reputation–

Despite the painful breakup, the singer says she’s trying to look on the bright side of things.

“There’s hope in it as well, because I have to keep the joy so I can live and survive. I can’t just die with all the sadness, that’s why I’m here because I kept my joy,” she said.

“In spite of my pain and crying and releasing everything onstage to my fans and us healing together, I kept my joy.”