R&B breakout star SZA admits that she felt like she failed her fans when her five Grammy nominations last month didn’t result into one single win.
In a recent interview, with GQ, the 27-year old born Solána Imani Rowe, says she was “mad as hell” about the losses.
Her first major-label album, Ctrl, brought her massive acclaim, both with fans and music critics alike. It was enough to garner her five Grammy nominations and even a spot on Saturday Night Live before it all came crashing down during award season.
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What’s more, her fans reactions weren’t helping as their outrage only made her feel worse, proving that they wanted her to win perhaps even more than she did.
“You feel like you’re really falling short and you f***ing failed [your fans],” she recalled.
What’s next?
SZA may have taken a moment to wallow in regret, but she isn’t staying there. She knows it’s time to look forward and is doing so by paying attention to the impact her music has had as a whole.
“We reached a billion streams on Spotify. The United States f**ks with my songs. We’re changing little girls’ lives across the world, and we didn’t even know what we were doing when we started,” she said.
“This is something much bigger than me and a f***ing trophy. I’m appreciative of the opportunity. But sh** happens,” she added.
In fact, she said, she took her loss like a boss and this of it now as a learning moment.
“Afterward I felt really free and light. It was super weird. I felt like I had all this weight off my shoulders. For certain things, maybe it’s worth really giving a f***, but I still think it’s always worth giving a f***,” she said. “It’s just learning how to process the lesson, the opportunity, the gift of the moment, rather than just letting your ego dictate what it all means. That was hard, but it was a really beautiful lesson. I’m super grateful.”
You can check out the full interview here.